It is almost completed. Soon, everyone is going to know.

I loathe changes, i have never taken a change well in my life. I almost backslided after a restructuring 2.5 years ago. Last year, i spent so much time in adapting that i missed God's call in my life.

Well, i am definitely not going to waste anymore time this year, dwelling & dwelling in negativity.

Thank God that i have come up with a new strategy to keep me constantly on the hype! I am going to form a team known as AsA (Anti satan Alliance). Sorry, i can't cap S because satan is just unscrupulous.

Yesterday, when i heard what the new NYP will be like. I am honestly, dismayed. Haha. It's alright. I pray that everything is going to be fine. It's hard to release, but i know i have to. God needs to work His kingdom out in this world. I can't keep people to myself all the time.

Well, easily said than done. I thought of stepping down as a leader yesterday night. Lol. I realised i am just not humble enough, i keep on belittling myself. I want to grow in the area of humility. It's seriously hard to release especially when you build your caregroup with so much efforts, everything is changed before successful discipleship is done well.

Anger rose in me as i was typing this post but i want to assure myself with this verse.

Ephesians 4:26
26"In your anger do not sin"[a]: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry,

I wish everyone the best. I pray for myself to get over it quickly. I think there's a slight improvement to my emotions. LOL. For leaders to access whether did i grow and did i make a consistent efforts!

Welcome Wei Koon to NYP too! Yeah. Pray you will grow well in God. :)


The part 2 of this post is going to be so long. I am prepared to type a post to catch the attention of onlookers. Here goes.

Yesterday was a long day for me. I was a bit emotional before the movie started because i am HUNGRY! Haha. Somehow or rather, i expected someone to get food for me without me paying for it. I have sinned in the area of greed, i realised. Some areas of my life reflect the likeness of the evil character inside.

Don't get stumbled by what i have said. I am still growing. By saying this, i am not giving myself excuse to sin in this area more, but to be aware of it, and stop committing the same mistake over and over again.

1 Thessalonians 2:5
You know we never used flattery, nor did we put on a mask to cover up greed—God is our witness.

A lot of people have been fcusing on "titles" rather than their personal relationship with the Lord. I have told many, that take aside your status of being a shepherd, a CL, who are you to God. Title shouldn't be the reason we should have in order to serve God whole heartedly. It is heartbroken to see many going after this title with greed, and many after attaining the position, fall very badly because their roots are not rooted on the word of God, but on title, emotions and feelings.

I have to make it clear to all people right now, that it is not men to annoint and appoint only. Our heavenly Father is the one.

We can argue that God don't annoint him, our leader annoints the wrong person. By saying this, we are already going against God's authority, as God entrusts the authority to appoint to our leaders. How long are we going to disobey? Isn't it a waste of time to feedback and feedback over issues after issues. If it is really urgent and it happens too many a times, we can feedback, but some of us, including myself have been using "feedback" conveniently to stir up unnecessary discord.

When i watch heart of greed, this verse comes into my mind

Proverbs 15:27a
A greedy man brings trouble to his family

Greed can cause much problems to the family. Same thing goes for spiritual family. If we just want to be self-centered and we just look at titles, eagerly waiting to be the next one. The kingdom of God cannot advance. You will see false accusations been passed around.

See ya, tata


I have an alternate blog now. Haha. It will be http://takashi-shinra.livejournal.com. I will update this alternate blog almost everyday from now on. It will consist of my most personal thoughts, what are some of the events that happen in my everyday life. That blog will not be opened for anyone to read except my selected group of friends.

Recently, i got addicted to the drama, "Heart of Greed". For the sypnosis of the drama, please go look it up at wikipedia. I need to save my time in typing the outline of the story. At the climax of the drama, one united family is split into 2 and they fight for $0.6 billion. Anger, melancholy, grief, lust, dishonesty all breed just by the love of money.

This is so true. Sometimes, we are so blinded by money that we can trade whatever we have for it. If you are rich, maybe you are not so easily swayed, but what if it is a large sum of money. We may think that this trap is too big of a hole for us to drop into it because it is too blatantly something that the devil wants us to drop into. But, think about it. No one has actually offers you to trade yourself for a huge sum of money. Erm, if someone really does that, even me myself will not know how i will respond to that.

Nice drama, here is the poster.



Love everyone in the show. Their acting is simply superb!


Haha. As the title suggests. I have just watched the movie, "You Don't Mess With The Zohan". This movie is simply funny. It talks a little bit about the on going war between Israel and the Arabs. I have a great time with Wei Kang & Stanley. Haha

It is definitely a good moment when ministry is aside, & there is a time when you can just enjoy the time with your sheep. God don't just create us to work, work & work. God created us to have fun too! Don't under-estimate the importance of having fun in the kingdom of God. It does help us to have joy in serving God!

I am very thankful that Wei Kang is growing as a believer. Throughout this period of time, even though he is a new believer, he seems like part of us already. I want to affirm him in this blog for his child-like faith. I want to encourage you, Wei Kang, if you are reading this entry, to continue to grow in your faith. God is going to add blessings upon blessings to you if you obey Him! Interestingly, problems will definitely come, but God always provide. Step out in faith!

See ya, tata! :)


As the title suggests, haha. I am going to talk a bit about stagnancy and complacency. Last year was a year that was the worst year for me in my whole walk with God. I rose up to be a CL, with huge amount of uncertainty and fear. My leaders changed, everything became a foreign ground to me. I took about 3 months to stabilize myself. It was also a time for me to find out where God can lead me.

I want to start it off by talking about the situation of my group. Last year, my group began with 3 people. Khok Yen, Chris and myself. Wow, i must say at that time, i was traumatized by the fear of leading very difficult people. Khok Yen was a guy who came on and off, inconsitent in caregroup and rather consistent for service. Chris was a sheep who always bite me, never gave me a peace of mind, topping it up with quarrels and disagreements. I begged God to take me out of that situation, i remembered saying this, "it's all too hard for me to handle"

After the mission conference in May last year, my heart for God started to pump a little bit faster. God brought me to think of His kingdom. Matthew 6:33 came to me and hit me right at the heart. It says:

33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

God also reminded me of Galatians 6:9. I want to thank God at this point of the entry for Shareeen who at that moment of time endured the same kind of hardship as i did. We met up frequently for discussions of our caregroup. We need to combine caregroup because both of our caregroup have only a regular attendance of 3. Just nice to form one proper caregroup of 6.

One particular afternoon, i started praying to God. God said He would bless me with someone of the school i was pioneering, which was the school of business at that time. So interesting, i started to have much unbelief about what the Holy Spirit could tell me. Indeed, God is faithful! I got to know Jia Ming from the School of Business! He is a friend of one of the brothers in TP. He came to know God, and then it came some new people.

De Ming wasn't that well retained until recently Chris made an effort to go all way out to connect him. Thomas had very well backslided from God AGAIN! Well, interestingly God just don't want to make him a shepherd because the moment i want to rise him up to be a shepherd. The number of new believer = 0. Stagnancy and complacency were in the group, thats why my group didn't grow and in fact many left God. Thats why, no taking break. It's a joy to serve God, thats why we keep serving. Once take a break, temptation(not trials)comes in. Look at David, just because he took a break from his war, he sinned against God. (Bathsheba example).

The high school transfers added much joy and atmosphere to the group. Thank God for Aaron & Stanley. They are people with a heart to serve God. They lighten a lot of my burden especially in taking ownership of taking care of their respective new believers. This gives me more space to do evangelism. I want to encourage my group who is reading the blog now. I believe we can do it as a team! Right now, even though i seem like a solo hunter for lost souls, i believe that the time will be ripe that you all will find lost souls too! See ya. Long post man!


This isn't really what God has done but find it funny and a bit true. :)

On the first day, God created the dog and said:

'Sit all day by the door of your house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. For this, I will give you a life span of twenty years.'

The dog said: 'That's a long time to be barking. How about only ten years and I'll giv e you back the other ten?'

So God agreed.

On the second day, God created the monkey and said:

'Entertain people, do tricks, and make them laugh. For this, I'll give you a twenty-year life span.'

The monkey said: 'Monkey tricks for twent y years? That's a pretty long time to perform. How about I give you back ten like the Dog did?'

And God agreed.

On the third day, God created the cow and said:

'You must go into the field with the farmer all day long and suffer under the sun, have calves and give milk to support the farmer's family. For this, I will give you a life span of sixty years.'

The cow said: 'That's kind of a tough life you want me to live for sixty years. How about twenty and I'll give back the other forty?'

And God agreed again.

On the fourth day, God created man and said:

'Eat, sleep, play, marry and enjoy your life. For this, I'll give you twenty years.'

But man said: 'Only twenty years? Could you possibly give me my twenty, the forty the cow gave back, the ten the monkey gave back, and the ten the dog gave back; that makes eighty, okay?'

'Okay,' said God, 'You asked for it.'

So that is why for our first twenty years we eat, sleep, play and enjoy ourselves. For the next forty years we slave in the sun to support our family. For the next ten years we do monkey tricks to entertain the grandchildren. And for the last ten years we sit on the front porch and bark at everyone.


Wow wow! God is faithful! Thursday, i told Hui Mei that i had a fiery prayer with God! I told God that i will not let Him go until He blessed me! God really did! Amazing!

For last year, my caregroup has made a record of having zero visitor in all kind of special events. This year, God made it a turning point. Now, my caregroup has finally broken 12! In fact, it is now 13 people in the group! God is working more and more miracles in the group! I am so darn excited! My caregroup didn't grow by having many transfers, but it grows!

Now, conquering the long table in MAC is no longer a dream. Prayer works miracles, it is such a great joy to be serving with Jesus by our side! Yeah!


I am so excited! This week is going to be a special service! Thank God that Jiang Long, Wendy and Ming Zhe has come to know the Lord! I am sure the Lord is working in the campus now. Move now, Holy Spirit. Move in the hearts of the non believer!

I will continue to invite, 2 more days. Not about giving up right now. I have got to trust the Lord. Thank God for the people in the caregroup today! Nicodemus, Suherman, Chris, Benjamin, Guan Quan, Stanley, Wei Kang and Aaron! You all have added much joy to the group. It's again one of the best caregroup i have ever attended as a careleader!

I want to encourage the people on this blog, in hope church. Continue to invite. If you have rejections, thats great! Because at least you invited! Wei Kang invited and got rejected but brother, its alright man! We go through all these as well. One day, God will visit your friends' heart.

Revival, revival to take place! 12 for NYPB2, 22 for the NYP brothers! We are going to see this goal come to pass!


Wow. Today 9th June has got to be the best day ever. It is the first day Xing Xing started his work. I called him when i am taking mrt to chua chu kang today, and he is telling me that he is working at the office of bishan mrt station, and add "youzhi" (childish in mandarin) a bit here and there. So interesting, brother!

Today, i shepherd 3 of my sheep. Initially, i plan to teach all 4 of my sheep at once, so that i will not be repeating the same lesson 4 times. But, chris can't make it at 3 today. So, i might as well meet them individually.

The 1st shepherding of the day is fierce, more at the frontline. I am very serious during the teaching. But, we have lunch, have fun before that. I choked on my food too. I want to affirm Chris that he has grown a lot throughout these 2 years. He has gotten out of his pride issue, humbly listened to me when i correct him today without showing me his "bao gong" face. I thank God that we chat more often through the phone these days. Our relationship has improved by a mile. We have gone through stormy weather, sunny days together. I appreciate him in my life. 2 years ago, i told Andrew "It must definitely be God's work if i can live in peace with him". Now, i know that God definitely works!

The 2nd shepherding of the day is funny. During shepherding, Stanley and i go to KFC, a distance away from my previous shepherding which is at the Mos Burger in ang mo kio hub. We were chatting about Shuan and Wei Kang. During teaching, he got distracted when i revealed a news to him about someone, whom he respected a lot. And he starts to ask a lot of questions about it. It is funny to me, especially the way he reacts, because i just refused to let him know the answer. It is just like a child, keep digging and digging the parents for the answer, but the parent just want to let him know, at the right time. Haha.

The last shepherding of the day is the longest and it is the best. Aaron and i went to KFC (2nd time of the day and i had mountain dew for the 2nd time). I can say at that time, i am pretty tired, but i am so sure that God has so specially arranged it to be the final one. I taught him the lesson, and after that we began to share life, he shared his problems to me, and i shared about certain circumstances i have gone through as a believer. It is so true that believers can get so spiritually dry if we keep on remaining stagnant. He is a very sincere person, and throughout this shepherding, i realised that as much as i know of him to be a very "rara" kind of person, there is a certain vulnerability about him. So real, so warm. I believe this is the kind of shepherding that God yearns for all of us to have. Take away all the pretension that we are doing well, we both realise the fact that when we keep on going around telling people we will definitely not leave church, we are putting ourselves at a vulnerable position where the devil can attack us, in the area of our pride. We prayed for a very long time. We repent, pray in the Spirit to edify ourselves, respond to God about our desires to serve Him, thank Him for everything He has put us through for it happens for a reason. We are both refreshed after the prayer. At the end of the shepherding, i realised we had spent 3 hours in total and it is very fruitful!

Thanks Aaron for his sincerity and his willingness to share.

With that, i end off with my favorite song from the beatles, "let it be"

I will change the "mother mary" to "my Lord Jesus" because we believe in Jesus and not mother Mary.

Let It Be - The Beatles (John Lennon & Paul McCartney)

When I find myself in times of trouble, my Lord Jesus comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness He is standing right in front of me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree,
there will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see,
there will be an answer. let it be.

Let it be, let it be, .....

And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light, that shines on me,
shine until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music, my Lord Jesus comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, .....


We allow God to do His work and let it be........


It has been a long time since i last posted. I am on a very sleepy state when i am typing this. Haha, so pardon me for all the poor english used here.

Recently, bad things happened to me. Time after time, parts of my body get injured. Yesterday, during challenge your limits, my wound on my finger got infected, so badly that today the doctor just cut an opening on my finger and squeeze all the pus out. Eew, i am disgusted by it myself when i see the yellow fluid flowing out of my "vulnerable' finger. I am glad that i took the courage to do it, because i can simply take the easy way out of just applying lotion onto it. But, it takes 3 days to heal.

I thank God in all circumstances that i am still able to do this for God. I don't regret going for that event at all, even though it caused me a lump sum of money, $35.60 for the medical bill! And also much pain along with it.

I want to thank Hui Mei, for teaching me a method of numbing my finger yesterday and also for "entertaining" me. Even though she was sleeping yesterday, she still answered my call, responded gently, unlike someone who just woke up from sleep. And later on send 2 smses, one with regard to, if my pain still persists, do let her know. I want to thank God that there is actually someone in my life who i can still count on despite tough circumstances.

Next, i want to thank my mother, who is more concerned over my wound than myself. She tried all ways to make me feel more comfortable. She always say "its you yourself suffering the pain" but her actions make her as if she is the one who is in pain. Haha. I can see she really loved me a lot.