A few days have gone by.

These few days, i have been rushing my project, doing the best i can to make the story work out. Interestingly, today, for a straight 5 hours. Phoebe and i have been rushing the script of the story, only to find that we finished only 1 out of 94 locations at the end of the day. Dejected and dispirited, only to know that this is just the tip of the iceberg

Today, i have been trying to get to Chris. He did not answer my calls, did not reply my sms. Khok Yen just phoned me not too long ago that he will not be able to attend the caregroup. My heart dropped. I just hope that this wasn't the reality i am in.

Nevertheless, i need to muster the courage to continue to believe that they will change. During my most disobedient time in my whole walk with Jesus. He didn't lose hope in me, but he continue to be patient with me, always hoping that i will come back to Him and repent. This is the spirit i want to capture from Jesus.

Just now, Andrew actually asked me to tear the color papers to welcome the people coming to our caregroup this saturday. Initially, i am pretty unwilling to do so. But, i do it anyway. I want to be fully obedient to my shepherd. I cant be obedient to God if i don't obey the leaders He has appointed for me. I cannot allow myself to be affected in the area of obedience just because i am in low spirit. I pick myself up and do the things he asked me to do without any further enquiries.

This reminds me of what Leslie told me. He said God will bless if you obey without having any condition. Obedience with conditions attached is never true obedience. I really want to obey my leader fully, not so that God can bless me, though it is part if the reason, to be frank, but is to test whether i am truly obedient. Initially, i thought tearing color paper is just a minor thing, it is alright not to obey because i am sad and disheartened. But, when i come to think of it. I can never obey my leaders in major things if i don't obey my leader in small little things first.

Today, is really an important lesson learned. I learn that i should obey no matter what. Disobedience is first that separates Adam from God. I really pray that i can obey leaders and most importantly to obey His words in whatever situation. I want to be willing to obey. Pray that i will get this spirit right.

Luke 11: 28
Blessed rather are those who hear the Word of God and obey it


Really praise God for all the things He has done!!

Today, on msn. One of my contact, Guan Quan told me that he wanted to know more about God. I was taken aback by this, i thought he just wanted to know about christianity. I told him that to know God, it is just by a simple prayer. Amazingly, he said he wanted to say this prayer!! Praise God, he is my second contact after Phoebe to cross the line of faith.

I wanted to call him to say the sinners' prayers together, but, due to his shyness. He is unwilling to let me call him. I couldn't think of a way to say the sinners' prayer with him. I called Andrew, twice and he didn't answer. I began to think of an alternative, i phoned Leslie and thankfully, it connected. He told me not to say the sinners' prayers over msn but to ask him out for a lunch and say it together with him.

I asked him out for lunch. Yes, thankfully, he is willing to come out and meet me for lunch. I was elated. After we have decided to meet for a while, i logged off my account and went to look up for my old friends, Shelia and Crystal for lunch. I was so happy that i cannot even finish the chicken rice, that is served at a rather normal proportion to me, usually. We chat for a while, Shelia and Crystal whine about their project team leader. I was grateful that my team is great, supportive and very willing to work even when i was not around. Sometimes, it just give me a tinkling feeling that i wasn't giving my best efforts which is true to a certain extent. Nonetheless, i am very obliged to work hard for this project and lift some unnecessary burden for my teammates. With my conversation with Shelia and Crystal, i began to realize that, since last year, my life has been undergoing a rather significant transformation. I am more courageous in giving them suggestions on what they can do to maximize the potential of their team members.

After i have lunch with my good old friends, they went back to their labs and i met up with Andrew and Ken. At first, i was afraid that Guan Quan will be frightened of the presence of so many people. When i meet him up, i asked him whether is it alright for my friends to come along. He says, "can." I was relieved. We have lunch together. We talked about certain things and i learn that he is actually very fond of soccer. Andrew chatted to him a few things regarding NCC and from that time on, his heart is opened to Andrew.

We went to the dome and say the sinners' prayers. I was very grateful to God. I had only met him personally once, and other times, we just have conversation in msn. The least did i expect is that he trusted me so much that he shared some of his problems to me, even when we just met each other only once. I am thankful to God that i appear to be trustworthy and credible to him that he is willing to share his life openly. We prayed for him, talk to him regarding certain matters in Christianity and we went to the library to have a little 'quiet time'.

I introduced to him Phoebe, Xue Lian and Xing Xing. He reminded me of myself in the past, he is so shy that it is relatively difficult for him to have a conversation with them. He studied and we talked and i realize that we need to have a little less conversation or we will distract him from studying.

I was very moved by God for the things He has done to Guan Quan. He wanted His creations to come to know Him that He will resort to His means to make the people want to come and know Him. His love is so great of a Father that no matter how little faith we have in Him, He will always find a way to make it happen so that we can feel His love. In this case, which is letting a shy contact open his heart to me when it seems virtually impossible for a shy person to open up their life to a stranger.

Romans 8:38-39
For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.


Long time since i last blogged. I hope no one misses it.

These 2 years have been a great and exciting year. I have witnessed Phoebe crossing the line of faith, experience God myself even to a greater height and having 2 sheeps, both Khok Yen and Chris.

God is a great shepherd. I really want to obey God fully, but i know i cannot do so if i don't submit to my spiritual leader Andrew fully. Sometimes, i am just so stubborn that my heart is like a stone that even arrows can't leave a scratch on it. These few months, when i was alone, lost in the wilderness, God has always been by my side, giving me extremely clear directions, assuring me that He is always with me when i feel insecure. He is the one that softens my mother's heart so much that my mother, instead of saying that i am brainwashed all the time, is willing to come to the Mandarin Church service. Praise God! I will be very happy if my mother comes to know Jesus. She has been through so much hardship that i really hoped that her future will be a luxurious one, in heaven.

Now, as a shepherd, i felt really happy to take care of both Khok Yen and Chris. I extremely like Khok Yen personality, he is very likeable. He is rather quiet when it comes to group outing but he makes a lot of friends, astonishingly. As for Chris, he is very noisy. There is not even one time that he will really keep quiet. But, i am thrilled to see how his life has changed since he knows God. Now, he is more willing to learn though he likes to insult and argue. Haha. Nevertheless, i am assured that God can do something, i am waiting for a second round of amazement, when he really says something that is in the Bible and not his personal views. Both sheeps really challenge my thoughts and really teach me how to sacrifice both my mangas and animes for them. Nonetheless, i am very willing to do so, even more willing to do more because it is God who drives me, nobody else.

Shelia was with me during my bad times. My caregroup comprising Andrew, Ken, Jia Hui, Hui Mei, Joey, Xue Lian and Celestine were with me during my rainy days. God is with me all time no matter good or bad. I forgot somebody, haha, and now i remember, he is Xing Xing.

Xing Xing might not be the most spiritual man, might not be the most God-driven man, might not even touch the bible, but, i am really glad that God has placed him in my life. He is a good helper, a great brother and even a better friend. Of all the times, he is like a killer of my most lonely time. People might argue that he is not spiritual, blah blah, tell me to stay away from him. That is ridiculous!! I vividly remember a time that he inspires me so greatly that i want to charge for God. Some people just think he is a nuisance, just because of his unwholesome talk and unspiritual life. Instead of spending the time to talk about him, why not help him! To me, he is the person who don't know how to say No to helps than any of the person i have met in my life. Everyone ought to learn this kind of spirit.

I have 1 contact, his name is Guan Quan. People, regardless of where you are from, please pray for Him to come to know Jesus. Jesus is the only one who can helped him from his problems. I really hope that his heart is opened to Jesus. He really needs Jesus!!