I bumped into someone's blog earlier tonight. I can say i am extremely stunned by the person who is blogging it. The soul of one who has been completely hurt and lost, heart is thoroughly hardened by bitterness and envy. How my heart goes towards this man, who is not at the right state of "spiritual" mind.

Somehow, it brings me back to think and thank Andrew who has been a good vessel of God in envisioning me, and helping me to adjust my priorities. I can vividly remember week after week, he will call me, and "pressurize" me to come for caregroup and service, even when i am super tired or super sick. Now, i am someone whose priority is really on God Himself. Recently, i talked to one person who is completely loving the "truth" that he is doing well with God by praying to God, reading His word at home, and loving people from afar. This is totally contradictory to what is stated in the bible.


Hebrews 10:25
Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.

If God likes to love us from afar, he need not come down to the earth and die for us. He might as well die in heaven. Precisely, He came down, made Himself like a man, interact with us, and love us even though sins have made us absolutely dirty. You can't say "I love an annoying person at home" without actually being involved in the life of the annoying person and being annoyed by him.

Philippians 2:6-8
6Who, being in very nature[a] God,
did not consider equality with God something to be grasped,
7but made himself nothing,
taking the very nature[b] of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
8And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
and became obedient to death—
even death on a cross!

Come on. If we think that this is being stressful, think again! If you think we are being forceful in our invitation to the people for cg and service. Think twice! This is not about being coming and going, it's about being involved. If you think this is Hope denomination, think thrice! You are not going to escape the account you are going to give to God at the end of the day, be it you are in Hope, Trinity, Rick's Warren Church, Billy Graham's converts whatsoever! If we can't even commit to the basic, the end times are going to cut our faith completely from God.

Matthew 25:31-46
31"When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, he will sit on his throne in heavenly glory. 32All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate the people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. 33He will put the sheep on his right and the goats on his left.

34"Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. 35For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, 36I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.'

37"Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? 38When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? 39When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?'

40"The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'

41"Then he will say to those on his left, 'Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. 42For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.'

44"They also will answer, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?'

45"He will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.'

46"Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life."



How are you going to be a good sheep without being involved in church?


Hi. I am so excited right now. There are a lot of happenings in and out of the caregroup right now. It seems to me that God is really testing the heart of His people. Praise the Lord! He answered my prayer with the rhema word He has given me two months ago.

Haha. I am thrilled of a meeting tomorrow with Aaron. Yeah. I have never taken care of a High School Transfer before. When he admits that he isn't really that strong, it shows humility and openness for him to share it to me, especially when he barely even know him. :)


It is just so difficult to be out there in the field to sow. There is a mixture of emotions and fear, which i thank God that He has actually put me through this. I am sure God is going to bless me with much if i just simply obey His call.

There is a level of excitement in my heart now. Now, i can totally experience the joy of being able to serve Him, without having to circle around the same struggle all the time. I understand the meaning of "break free". It is true that humans do sin, but if we always use this as an excuse not to have any breakthrough. Then it is just an excuse, because when Jesus died on the cross for us, we had already died to our old self. There is no reason for the same kind of struggle.

I thank God that, i have overcome what i deem impossible. :)


Hey. I am back to write my blog again. I have an extremely refreshing caregroup today. My tank is filled this morning with an abundance of God's love. I read the book of Joel today, amazing prophecy. Yet again, it brought me closer to God, wanting to find out more about Him. More to come, i am anticipating it.

Today, it is nerve wracking. The first time i have to teach so many people in Istana Park. Wow! There are visitors too, which add on to the fear that i have to teach. I have reassurance from the Holy Spirit when He reminded me of this verse, which greatly boosted my faith in my deliverance of the lesson.

1 Thessalonians 5:19
Do not put out the Spirit's fire;

After being struck by that verse. I immediately regain back my conviction and to really teach the people what God has impressed on me. It is said in the book of Mark, "If God is for you, who can be against you?" It encourages me that if God really want me to speak, i have to do it. I can't be like Jonah, who is constantly on the escape route from God. If the Holy Spirit stirs up great energy in you to bring across a message to the people, don't dampen it with discouragement and fear(False evidence appearing real).

I had liked to do more for God. I don't want to waste this holiday away. I pray my people will have the same mindset. I seriously don't see how we can build up our faith in our tiny hut spending time with God in our cute little room when the real deal of building up your faith is on the spiritual battlefield, which can be quite intimidating to first timer because you don't fight against someone whom you can see.

Ephesians 6:12
For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

Until the next time, tata.


Today, i am spending my day at home reading the book of Hosea. Wow, i must say, spending time with God is nothing but priceless. I understand His heart and His ways better. The Word of God clearly is a lamp to our feet. I am thankful to God that i am able to read His words, praying that during the last of the last days, they will be impressed on my hearts that when anti-christs take the bible away, God's word is still in me.

There is a level of guilt in my heart. It has been such a long time since i last teared in front of God. I felt ashamed that i have taken advantage of His grace that He has shown me. In Hosea 6:6, this verse hits my heart so bad that i want to come immediately into repentance of my sins.

Hosea 6:6
For I desire mercy, not sacrifice, and acknowledgement of God rather than burnt offerings.

If you can't understand what this verse is trying to say, it's trying to say. When is the last time you have repented of the sin and move on from there? Are you repenting over and over again that it has become more of a religion rather than to please God? A lot of times, when i have fallen short in this area, i always have this excuse in my mind, "aiya, i am still a human being, surely i will feel this way, even if it isn't right. Just repent at the end, God will still forgive." Due to this, my relationship with God just seems strong, but it isn't even closed to been strong. I lack trust in His power to transform life now. It brings me back to think that i trusted Him more when i am a new believer, that He is able to transform the past me to who i am today. I yearn to find my faith back again, not to be too caught up with serving the church only and neglect my personal walk with God.

It is so true in the bible that it says
Matthew 18:2-4
2He called a little child and had him stand among them. 3And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.


Serving people should not be an obligation, it should be out of the overflow of God's love in your heart, that you want to show it to other people. There's no such thing as getting sick and tired of serving. I am a culprit of this and ought to reflect on myself, ask myself whose strength am i depending on when i serve. Serve with joy! Don't be like Martha, who kept complaining and whining while serving!