the willing to obey spirit
5:15 AM |
A few days have gone by.
These few days, i have been rushing my project, doing the best i can to make the story work out. Interestingly, today, for a straight 5 hours. Phoebe and i have been rushing the script of the story, only to find that we finished only 1 out of 94 locations at the end of the day. Dejected and dispirited, only to know that this is just the tip of the iceberg
Today, i have been trying to get to Chris. He did not answer my calls, did not reply my sms. Khok Yen just phoned me not too long ago that he will not be able to attend the caregroup. My heart dropped. I just hope that this wasn't the reality i am in.
Nevertheless, i need to muster the courage to continue to believe that they will change. During my most disobedient time in my whole walk with Jesus. He didn't lose hope in me, but he continue to be patient with me, always hoping that i will come back to Him and repent. This is the spirit i want to capture from Jesus.
Just now, Andrew actually asked me to tear the color papers to welcome the people coming to our caregroup this saturday. Initially, i am pretty unwilling to do so. But, i do it anyway. I want to be fully obedient to my shepherd. I cant be obedient to God if i don't obey the leaders He has appointed for me. I cannot allow myself to be affected in the area of obedience just because i am in low spirit. I pick myself up and do the things he asked me to do without any further enquiries.
This reminds me of what Leslie told me. He said God will bless if you obey without having any condition. Obedience with conditions attached is never true obedience. I really want to obey my leader fully, not so that God can bless me, though it is part if the reason, to be frank, but is to test whether i am truly obedient. Initially, i thought tearing color paper is just a minor thing, it is alright not to obey because i am sad and disheartened. But, when i come to think of it. I can never obey my leaders in major things if i don't obey my leader in small little things first.
Today, is really an important lesson learned. I learn that i should obey no matter what. Disobedience is first that separates Adam from God. I really pray that i can obey leaders and most importantly to obey His words in whatever situation. I want to be willing to obey. Pray that i will get this spirit right.
Luke 11: 28
Blessed rather are those who hear the Word of God and obey it