The Time Has Come....
11:46 PM |
Today, i am spending my day at home reading the book of Hosea. Wow, i must say, spending time with God is nothing but priceless. I understand His heart and His ways better. The Word of God clearly is a lamp to our feet. I am thankful to God that i am able to read His words, praying that during the last of the last days, they will be impressed on my hearts that when anti-christs take the bible away, God's word is still in me.
There is a level of guilt in my heart. It has been such a long time since i last teared in front of God. I felt ashamed that i have taken advantage of His grace that He has shown me. In Hosea 6:6, this verse hits my heart so bad that i want to come immediately into repentance of my sins.
Hosea 6:6
For I desire mercy, not sacrifice, and acknowledgement of God rather than burnt offerings.
If you can't understand what this verse is trying to say, it's trying to say. When is the last time you have repented of the sin and move on from there? Are you repenting over and over again that it has become more of a religion rather than to please God? A lot of times, when i have fallen short in this area, i always have this excuse in my mind, "aiya, i am still a human being, surely i will feel this way, even if it isn't right. Just repent at the end, God will still forgive." Due to this, my relationship with God just seems strong, but it isn't even closed to been strong. I lack trust in His power to transform life now. It brings me back to think that i trusted Him more when i am a new believer, that He is able to transform the past me to who i am today. I yearn to find my faith back again, not to be too caught up with serving the church only and neglect my personal walk with God.
It is so true in the bible that it says
Matthew 18:2-4
2He called a little child and had him stand among them. 3And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.
Serving people should not be an obligation, it should be out of the overflow of God's love in your heart, that you want to show it to other people. There's no such thing as getting sick and tired of serving. I am a culprit of this and ought to reflect on myself, ask myself whose strength am i depending on when i serve. Serve with joy! Don't be like Martha, who kept complaining and whining while serving!